to say that i'm a blog-a-holic would be an understatement. reading laudable thoughts of others reinstates the overrated doctrine regarding human separation (i'd prefer if it were called, connection) which extends just as far as six degrees. it satiates my emotional whoring too. when it comes to emotions, on the contrary, only look to your left, and you'd be surprised at how much common ground you parcel with the other souls roaming planet earth. and so, i seem to write best when it pertains to feelings, leaning close towards existentialist philosophy. it's hard to write on feelings in a non conventional way, without coming off sappy, cliched or a fag. subtlety at best, sends the most explicit messages and that's why i'm head over heels for word play. now if only i can say that about my relationships.
over zealous anonymous, here i come.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
hiding underneath the smoke
there's so much to say in the absence of an ear that'll listen. i'm oodled with indignited irritation after today's lack of reach.
i resent all current disposition: location, occupation, affiliation. i sense the hypocrisy and selfish-ness of this attitude. i just don't have the strength to hold back my discontent any longer and if this reflects my withdrawal, then inertia it is.
vulnerable via a cul de sac for living the way i do. slowly but most assuredly pointing out each self actualization bit, that i've always been proud of (until now), as flaws. it's hurting me. even more when i have to bite my tongue, or look away when the tears swell in. it's an internal struggle to shut up, to prevent a fall out. or maybe i'm just afraid you wouldn't listen.
look beyond your world and try to find a place for me.
i resent all current disposition: location, occupation, affiliation. i sense the hypocrisy and selfish-ness of this attitude. i just don't have the strength to hold back my discontent any longer and if this reflects my withdrawal, then inertia it is.
vulnerable via a cul de sac for living the way i do. slowly but most assuredly pointing out each self actualization bit, that i've always been proud of (until now), as flaws. it's hurting me. even more when i have to bite my tongue, or look away when the tears swell in. it's an internal struggle to shut up, to prevent a fall out. or maybe i'm just afraid you wouldn't listen.
look beyond your world and try to find a place for me.
Sunday, June 3, 2007
behold, it's june
this june, i'm drowning myself into...
Eating: Kaya toast for breakfast (i cannot get enough of it)
Wearing: denim never goes out of style.
Shopping: the 'Great Singapore Sale' is on...! hoping to splash on a Tod's Media T Bag, wishful thinking*
Watching: high-budget-no-brainer-sell-out summer films. ocean's 13, ratatouille, fantastic 4? a dose of clockwork orange might reverse the detrimental effects. if i can get hold of a copy in kl, le sigh.
Reading: The Glass Palace by Amitav Ghosh
Listening: Death Cab for Cutie, James Morrison, Maroon 5
Partying: yeah, i'll get back to you on this, if ever.
...and getting more sleep than that which May didn't allow.
Eating: Kaya toast for breakfast (i cannot get enough of it)
Wearing: denim never goes out of style.
Shopping: the 'Great Singapore Sale' is on...! hoping to splash on a Tod's Media T Bag, wishful thinking*
Watching: high-budget-no-brainer-sell-out summer films. ocean's 13, ratatouille, fantastic 4? a dose of clockwork orange might reverse the detrimental effects. if i can get hold of a copy in kl, le sigh.
Reading: The Glass Palace by Amitav Ghosh
Listening: Death Cab for Cutie, James Morrison, Maroon 5
Partying: yeah, i'll get back to you on this, if ever.
...and getting more sleep than that which May didn't allow.
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